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I’m enrolled in an intense “un-learning” program at Sri Baghavan’s Oneness University located in Varadaiahpalem, a village in Chittoor district in the state of Andhra Pradesh in southern India. The concept is simple. I am merely unlearning all the learned knowledge which has poisoned me from experiencing. Living life purely from the senses without the interference of the mind is known as bliss or “sat chit ananda.” 

This morning, there was much scrambling due to my roommate’s visa being four days expired. In order to avoid the hassles of illegally staying in India, she had to immediately pack her suitcases, catch a taxi to the airport and jump on the next flight leaving from Chennai to her home country.

Just prior to her leaving, in the process of packing, she diligently kept all of her belongings neat and organized. Meanwhile, my stuff somehow ended up displaced or unguarded. 

By the time I arrived in class at 6:30 am for meditation and yoga, there was no way I could concentrate. There was too much conflict going on in my head because she had been up all night, frantically preparing to leave India.

Sitting on my yoga mat under a tree, with my hands in Pranamaya Kriya Three mudra, my eyes closed, and trying to focus on my breathing, all I could feel was this chaos inside my mind. My thoughts were like a ping-pong ball bouncing back and forth, questioning whether or not the price of being in a state of bliss required forgoing common courtesy 

Suddenly, I heard the Divine say to me, “There is no chaos. There is only your perception of chaos.” 

Then the Divine said to me, “Why do you expect her to be a person just because she looks like a person? She is not a person. She is a squirrel. Squirrels keep their stuff clean, but mess up your stuff. Why are you not honoring and respecting her squirrel nature? Allow her to be a squirrel.”

As I was pondering this, the Divine continued, “If someone else is a knife and cuts you, allow them to be a knife and allow them to cut you. It is their nature. If someone else is a rock and they crush you, allow them to be a rock and allow them to crush you. It is their nature. Allow everyone to express what their nature is. Then, honor that nature.”

Then, the Divine asked me, “If you expect people to be people, then you will be rigid like a stick. Don’t you want to be fluid like air or like light? If you are not rigid, then everyone will be free to express their nature around you and in you and to you.

“Some people are animals or elements of nature like wind, water or soil. Not everyone is human. Do not expect everyone to be human, when they are not. Allow them to express their nature. Then you will allow all aspects of your nature to be expressed through the What Is. And the What Is will express all aspects of itself through your nature.”

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There is no chaos, only perception of chaos.